The soul asks the Spirit, so hopeful but quiet and shy; was I or am I and will I eternally be where I can cling to Elohim with my entire being. Yes, there where I will strive towards Love and Peace in order to experience God’s creation positively as well as productively.

But the flesh answers so insurgent, rebellious yes aggressive in its stride; I would rather like to cling to the allurement of the world because I am deeply interwoven with matter. So, why would I want to tremble before Judgment from early until late in my short earthly life in order to only fear Him in all my coming and going, while I can live from feast to feast in the glorious flesh, from moment to moment only.

And so the soul is standing between Good and evil, yes completely divided by a two-edged sword while she only wants to survive and live for the moment as well as eternity. So the soul longs for the earthly as well as the heavenly garment, while she knows that she cannot follow two masters.

So the soul calls: Oh my God, please forgive me all my disbelief, because in every way I want to experience and live, but above all I long to exist eternally because not to be is eternal death which every being fear in its deepest being. Therefore I know, in order to live on through your Might I must only strive to the perfection of the Spirit all the time and therefore I must cling to You with my entire heart and love in Spirit and Truth, with my free will.